Hello, there! I think you are new here.
Before starting our journey, let me introduce myself.
My name is Viola, but I'm Purpleisweird on social media. As my username suggests, I like to think I'm weird, out of the box. And I have a hint you might be just like me.
I'm a full-time dreamer and a part-time creator.
They say we can only succeed on the internet if we have a niche, I say that it would be an insult to limit myself to a specific field.
Labels never fit me and never will. 
My website reflects the big mess my head is, and I hope you will feel at home here.
I can't wait to share my life with you, and I hope you will share yours too in the comments.
Enough talking, on board!

Purpleisweird

  • Purpleisweird

Why am I ugly?

How can a word like ‘beauty’ mean both self-love and self-destruction?




Since the beginning of time, there have been attractive people and less attractive ones. I’ve always wondered how was that possible. How can a normal human being achieve that beauty that seems an unfairly innate right for some privileged people?



When I was 14 years old, I’ve asked myself that a lot When I looked myself at the mirror, I spent hours and hours analyzing why everyone at school called me Cyclops. The truth is that I was the ugliest girl in the classroom. And that had been my reality for my first 14 years of life. I still remember asking myself if a person would ever want to kiss me. Walking through the hallways always felt like a knife was stabbing me multiple times. Everyone laughed at me. But why?


High school was the same thing... until one day.


From that day, it seemed like I wouldn’t be worried anymore about being accepted and loved by people. Then, at university, I went through my hardest time. I did things no one should do and I was alone.

Again.


I wouldn’t eat for days and I completely lost control over my life and self-care.

After that, I went through a second moment of depression. I was out of my bad habits but to replace them, I started to eat a lot and gained a lot of weight.


You can imagine what people said behind my back ‘Have you seen her? Gosh, she gained so much weight?’.


Long story short, my life was a mix of beauty and ugliness.


People tend to say to teenagers: ‘Oh, don’t worry if no one likes you. It’ll change when you grow up’.

It’s not true.

See, I wasn’t ugly and then became beautiful or vice versa. I’ve always had the same face and been the same person.

What changed was what was deep inside me.

The moment you become your true friend and you accept to love, respect, and stand up for the most important person in your life- yourself- you will never be ugly again.

So, please, every day do something for you.

Show yourself the love you deserve and I guarantee you, you will be the most beautiful person you will ever see.





© 2019 by Viola Musaraj